I was at a Blink 182 concert last weekend. They were my teen idols and the demy gods in my ‘Rebel – phase ‘. The concert was a blast, I screamed I jumped; it felt like I was a teenager again. I am 23 which it’s not too old but certainly not a kid for sure.
I am currently in a phase of life filled with anxiety, a bit of fear of the future and in whole a lot of uncertainly. I very well know that this is the case with many people of my age.
I am grateful that I graduated in time and secured a job right after. I consider myself fortunate, but a lot of things still run in my head. Is this job the right one? Can I hold onto this job? Is the path right? What if I have to relocate? Am I spending too much rather than saving? Lot of questions about tomorrow.
Sometimes I ask myself if it’s worth all the effort. I am from India and working in US away from all my loved ones. I really ask if career is worth leaving them and being here among all these tensions, alone. Most of the times the answer is YES. I have to do justice to my degree and my parent’s dreams.
A lot of people can connect to this at some stage of their lives. Something I have realized and should learn to implement is just to struggle through every day and give it your best shot. I get disheartened sometimes at work wondering about the various ‘what –ifs ‘. It is not the best use of time which I should control more. I do not expect for this phase to be over soon. Stability is not over rated. It is something that every guy in my shoes will die for. Everything is worth doing to gain some peace of mind.
